Author: Eugenie Arrowsmith MA

I am an passionate music industry freelancer working via my company Total Creative Freedom Ltd, to offer musicians, organisations and labels distribution, promotion and 360 album release services. Alongside one to one coaching for recording artists and teaching singing and creative practices. This is my personal blog. I am also a recording artist and visual artist myself. Having been signed to Virgin 10 as a teenager I am reappraising my work and music generally through the filter of fine art and real lived experiences. I did a fine art degree at Northbrook MET in Sussex while going through my second run in with breast cancer. I then followed that with a Masters in Performance and Visual Practices at The University of Brighton and graduated with a Distinction. Over the years I have learnt so much and the big take out from all my experiences is that creativity saves lives, enhances lives, transforms lives, heals lives. I am not medium, genre or discipline obsessed I see creativity as an end in itself and as the ultimate source and expression of the joy of living an emotionally present life.

Born To Be Alive – The Song That Says It All – Breast Cancer Awareness Month – Day 11#

It’s easy to feel very sorry for yourself when you are going through treatment and to forget that there is a power and joy to simply being alive and being here. Hippy as that may sound and it probably is, the simple truths are the ones that touch you the most when you are in crisis.

My Shifting Identity – Owning & Loving My Fat, Fat Face – Breast Cancer Awareness Month Diary – Day #10

There are few things in the music industry worse than being fat and old. People remember the youthful Elvis Presley … More

When The Future is Unclear – Breast Cancer Awareness Month Diary – Day #9

It was an abject lesson in wrestling with uncertainty. I was just coming up to the end of my first year as a fine art student and then had to prepare for a radical double mastectomy post a ‘routine’ check up.

The Curative Power of A Woman’s Best Friend – They Call It Fluffy LOVE! – Breast Cancer Awareness Month Diary – Day #8 –

Okay I admit it I am a poor woman’s Sharon Osborne or Lisa Vanderpump. I have expensive taste in dogs. … More

It turns out I have a “great shaped head” – Breast Cancer Awareness Month Diary – Day #7

I remember waking up and seeing my daughter at the door of the room wearing a plastic apron and her not being allowed to touch me. It actually brings a tear to my eye just thinking about it now almost a decade later. The look on her face at that moment will never leave me.

Lucky to loose my hair. Lucky to have chemotherapy – #GodBlessTheNHS – Breast Cancer Awareness Month Diary – Day #6

And so it went on, bargaining with the Universe. I knew how tough the path ahead was because Ihad lost one of my dearest friends to breast cancer. She died just before her son’s 4th birthday so I know it doesn’t always end well.

Myself As A Ghost & The Endurance of Frida Kahlo – Breast Cancer Awareness Month Diary – Day #5

The crowing weight loss, weight gain headlines, the mistaken outfit stories, the too much botox, looking too haggard stories, they all make the body a battleground. For me it was something of a relief to just accept that I would never qualify by the impossible yardstick. I had to just let it go and to be honest there is a lot of freedom in that.